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The story of us feels a lot like a tragedy now [May. 19th, 2011|04:24 am]
Tanya
[Current Location |Sammamish, WA]
[Current Mood |anxiousanxious]
[Current Music |Taylor Swift - The Story of Us]

I told myself that after I got my breast MRI results, I would quit smoking. Either I would have cancer, and the subsequent medications/treatment would forbid smoking. Or I wouldn't have cancer, and I won't have that looming anxiety in the back of my mind. Well, got the results, and YAY! Negative for cancer :) So, now I need to put serious effort towards not smoking.

At least, I've been telling myself that I'll smoke strictly when drinking. I fear that may turn me into an alcoholic.

I feel I would be a happier person today had I not been brave enough to follow through with a certain impulse a year ago. Love has not been treating me well. I think I need a change of scenery. Things are becoming stagnant dealing cards; it was never meant to turn into a career. I need to get my finances in order, get back to aviation, and gtfo. Just pick up and move to the other side of the country. Or to a new country.

I love the friends I've made, and the one thing holding me back is fear of being without my nearest and dearest. It just feels itchy to stay put. I don't know.

Also, I hate identifying with a Taylor Swift song. But I do. And in my defense, when I first heard it, I thought it was Paramore.
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[User Picture]From: shellbellina
2011-08-15 11:56 am (UTC)
So after we mentioned livejournal the other night I decided to stalk people. Not like it really counts as stalking cuz it's you...Anyways. I agree with the gtfo of dealing business. Aviation is where it's at. I don't agree with the you moving across the country bit, but I suppose sometime in the nearish future I may actually make money and would be able to visit. Or you could fly to me.
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